done

Done. I´ve passed Filal of finals yesterday. Still don´t get it fully, but the feeling is incredible. Incredible an bit dangerous for me, because all this mental space filled with stress and medicine is now free for another thoughts and fears = ed fears.

Last week Remedy asked me how I think I would live in BCity if I were always healthy - would I live alone or in some WG, spend my free time in museums or do some sport, have a dog or take
some course in chinese medicine etcetc. It is difficult to answer, because when I was healthy I was 13 and it was decade ago. Anorexia affected more or less almost every decision I did. And now I am about to decide how I am going to live. It is bi opportunity to change something. It is both opportunity for me and for anorexia. I have still 1 and half month in Prague, working and doin some hospital rounds, then some traveling and in August/September moving. But I am comletely clueless about the way I will live there. Of course there will be lot of studying/research/work, but what about intuitive normal living?? Perhaps I will figure it somehow out and perhaps I will just go and live.