Flat city - first summary

When you go to Berlin by bus and when you are there for more than two days and nor the research you are involved it neither the winter term in school haven't started yet, you have too much time on your hands, eyes and amygdalas (anxiety-responsible part of brain) to think about following:
1. The landscape is so flat! = ED thought: no mountains for climbing or cycling around. I already knew it, but it is REALLY flat. The better part of it is the amount of wind power installations. They are everywhere, looking so giant and fatalistic, transforming the Higher Power into something good or just patiently resting. I wish I could do that as well.

2. The part of Berlin where I live is really transcultural. You can find almost every nation and their culture in the streets. It is not really scary for me and I hope I won't sound anyhow racist, because I HATE IT (or I just don't understand it), but- lot of people speak turkish or some german-turkish mix, so that I don't know what they are speaking about.

3. My room and the whole appartment is actually better than I thought when I saw it for the fist time. It is tiny, just three rooms for three of us (+ two cats who are lovely creatures! One of them actually seems to like me, the other is bit shy + my flatmates boyfriends, who comes quite often.), but I feel somehow safe in it so far. We have separate places for food, but also some common food and we wash our clothes divided and we have a plan for cleaning. I like plans you know? And I like that I am free in buying food, but also I will be sometimes "forced" to eat together. (I am scared, ok, but I like the fact it is normal).
My flatmates seem to be nice. I am bit scared of one of them and I don't know why. She smokes a LOT and she is really busy and she looks sad even when she laugh. The another one is absolutely tiny and lovely. She studies clothes design and she seems to be the kind of happy and pure person.

4. Exercise... I can't say about it much, because I've had flu for the last 10 days or so and I was not able to do the exercise I am allowed to. Berlin is geneally exercise friendly, lot of green areas, lot of water areas and lot of bikes everywhere. And since I am not really gym addict (I hate gym) + I don't have my exercise bike or treadmill direct in front of my bed, I am looking forward to doing some exercise outside. I am trying not to think about it much, don't plan a routine, because routine means obsession in my case and... you know already.

5. Grocery shopping is hell. I mean HELL. I will write another post about it, but I am really not recovered in the way I am buying food. I spend like one hour in a supermarket last week and deciding what to buy or not buy was excruciating. ED thougt: Just find out the energy in all of them, compare, count, think, put it back, grab something another, healthier! Ok it sounds weird, but something is still wrong in my head. Everything is soooo different! Yoghurts and ganola bars and müsli and cheese...everything. Lot of Berliners also eat their lunches in the streets, so there little shops with food of many cultures are all around. I think I should try some of these foods later, but I am still bit uncertain about it.

I am really tired now, so that I will continue later. Everything is so new and big and overwhelming right now. There are times I don't want anything but cry and/or going home, to my old Uni, to my family and friends, to my old habits. But I want to recover and LIVE, remeber ola?. I want to live every day fully, not creating every day similar, routine, default, obsessive. I failed in normal living at home. Everytime. Let's see what will Berlin do with me. And how I will utilise it, what I can do for Berlin.