When you know someone who is constantly trying to bluff, deceive or rob you, probably you would (depending on your temperament):
- after some forgiveness and one-more-chance attempts never trust him again
- keep away from him
- punish him
- forget the episode after some time
It is tiring to observe myself cheating myself. Seeing all this good old tricks and tiny lies I am trying to do myself. How can I forgive myself and at the same time stop doing it? Lying is big issue for me. I hate the fact I´ve been lying or at least pretending something in the face of many people I love or regard. Sometimes in the night I am sweating and tremble because I am scared they won´t trust me anymore. Anymore. But the possibility that I cant trust myself anymore in my life is horrifying me even more.
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