Crying. I feel so overwhelmed. I don´t believe I can do both recovery and the final exam this summer. I need to pass it because of research and BCity. I am terrified of the amount of informations I don´t know. I am terrified of not exercising and gaining weight. And though I have technically much more time for studying, it doesn´t work. My concetration is about -273°C.
I wish I could just sleep for weeks and wake up being someone else, someone better, someone not so selfabsorbed, who can focus of being good med student, being here for friends and patients, being good person and not this ridiulous mixture of someone I used to be, someone I wish I was and someone I hate.
The edge of familiar coping mechanism is so close, but I am not going to destroy the last weeks of hard work.
I'm thinking empathetic thoughts about you. You CAN do this. You're going to be an amazing, amazing doctor because of what you're going through right now.
ReplyDeleteAnd is that absolute zero? I'm terrible at conversions.
thank you! I wish it worked like that.
ReplyDeleteAnd yes, it´s absolute zero (I am slightly exaggerating)