very special nutritionist & mystical thinking

After IP treatment and major weight gain last summer I decided to follow meal plan from my IP team and not to "have" my own nutritionist. Eating has been bit stressful lately, so I stopped seeking justifications like lack of time/money or the fact I am probably too trained in nutrition and I started to seek a nutritionist.

Today I had my first nutritionist appointment ever.
My nutritionist is kind of unique. 1) It is man. I don't know why I expected a woman. 2) He used to be professional cyclist, spinning instructor and now he is also certified cognitive behavioral therapist 3) He used to suffer with anorexia for years. Actually he told me this just so within first 5 minutes of the appointment. And what is wonderful - he's been recovered for more than a decade. I will see him probably only once in a month or so, because I won't be more often in Prague and because this money thing, but I hope it will work.

Second thing I would like to address is mystical thinking in eating disorders.
Just before I went to the nutritionist I've heard about the terorist's attacks in Moscow. Automatically I started to think: such a tragedy happens and you are going to spend an hour discussing what, how and when to eat. You are wasting your time while you should do something useful blah blah blah you should be in this underground because you are anyway killing yourself. But this is not exactly the "magical thinking". Sometimes I have really weird moments or flashes when I almost believe, that me/my eating disorder could be responsible for some completely independent event. Example: If I eat(don't eat- and another particulary ED related conditions) this and this, I won't pass that exam. This is mild version, because sometimes in these thougts figure car accidents or someone else's health. Another time I see a photo of some friend looking like he/she lost weight and I have really bad paranoia about him/her having an eating disorder or just loosing weight while I am gainig. I don't experience it very often and I can deal it, but it is not pelasant and I wonder if anyone has experienced something similar.

Anyway I think the only way how to avoid this magical thinking is to catch on the recovery rope and make some steps forward this spring.